scan and conference

So this Friday I get a CT scan.  I have had 12 treatments on this type of chemo.  Last year my regimen was 12 treatments and we all thought I was in the clear.  I can't believe I've already been through 12 more!  Unfortunately there isn't an end in sight, nothing to celebrate really.  I am anxious about this scan just because i have had so many stomach issues lately.  Unfortunately the chemo can cause that so it's hard to tell what is going on.  I will find out the results of my scan at my apt before my chemo on monday the 31st.  I assume if there is anything new showing up we will have to dicuss where to go from there, I don't see a point in doing the same chemo if we have growth. 

The young cancer conference is also this weekend.  Bryan and I are going and since there are a lot of sessions I want to attend but you can only choose 2 to go to I think we Will split up and that way we can get more info.  I really hope to connect with another young couple going through something similar, if we make one friend I'll be happy :)

I am also working on getting an apt with the top clinical trial GI oncologist at Mass General.  My oncologist that I have seems reluctant to discuss clinical trials with us because my treatment i'm on is working.  Bryan and my thoughts are that we'd like a plan for when this chemo stops working.  It could happen at any time, the average this one works for people is a year and we're half way there.  It is constantly on my mind that at any time I could start heading where I was in september and be in so much pain and realize that it's not working anymore.

Well I hate CT scans because the stuff they make me drink makes me sick every time.  We got a hotel in Boston to stay up there after since the conference is the next morning at the same place.  We have friends watching the kids for the night and I am looking forward to a night out, hopefully I won't be too sick!