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Monday, October 28, 2013

welcome to my head

So when I do the meditation, this is where I am.  This is a place about 15 mins from my house where I grew up swimming.  And it is even more amazing in person.  This is the exact spot I pretend I am on when I let my mind wander and escape from my cancer.  The rocks soak up the sun and heat me from the back while the sun heats me up on top!

 And these are some of my fam that came to enjoy the scenery on this freezing cold day. 
I still don't have any fluid build up that I can tell anyway.  I am dissapointed that I haven't been feeling very good in my tummy despite this.  I thought the cramping and discomfort all along was the fluid and now i'm still experiencing these symptoms so I'm not sure if it's the chemo or what, but I haven't felt great the past few days.  I also am not excited about the cold, I am thinking a winter Arizona trip will be in order at some point!

7 comments:

  1. Beautiful spot Leah! especially with all your wonderful family there. ;)
    I think an Arizona trip would definitely be in order!!!
    Dawn

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  2. Welcome forward, adorable Leah,

    Ah Ha! A swimmer! And lots of other things I love about you. Swimming is almost my best friend. It is water borne meditation, a little like a runner's high. Of course, my runner's high doesn't get that high--at least as high as most other people I run with, but I'll take it, no matter the height.

    I am learning how strong and independent you are and I can understand your smile better in those photos of you and your family rambling about the internet. Your recent photos are spectacular--you and your clouds and your meditative buzz feel soothing--for you and all of us Leah lovers. I love your family shot on the rocks.

    I think I understand your chemo feelings. Well, not how badly one can feel afterwards, but about having to do it. Frankly, IF you can drink those green, leafy cocktails [do you add sugar or sweetness to take the edge off stuff like KALE (arrrgggghhhh), OKRA (slippin' and a slidin' whooops down, down, down), and whatever else there are], (you can probably tell that my kids, at ages 9,9, and 12, have never, to the best of my knowledge, tried an honest to goodness vegetable), just like you and your brother's devotion to green stuff, my kid's color is RED--that's right, as a topping for their favorite food group: pizza..., deep breath, THEN you can do anything.

    And that's what I'm counting on. The more I learn, the more I realize that you can do this. You're strong, we're behind you, and we're all going to make it happen.

    xoxo Leah

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  3. Looks like an amazing spot to be - both physically and mentally. I will SO meet you in SOUTHERN Arizona! Supposed to snow here tomorrow in Northern AZ. Hope things continue to improve as you move forward with treatment.

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  4. Leah! Yay! No fluid buildup for a while now. Awesome. Hey, I'm sorry you still aren't feeling so hot but I'm happy you are just a bit more comfortable and able to love up your kids. Channel your inner cat and keep hitting those warm rocks. I imagine the heat they radiate is quite comforting.

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  5. Hi Leah! Yeah for love and sun and meditation! It is truly amazing what you can do with it! When I go swimming, I do a lap and send out healing request to God for you, next lap I ask for miracles, (I believe in miracles!) the next I ask for your comfort... and then I ask for a little help for me too! I will continue to keep you in my thoughts and prayers and know there are so many people out there that care about you. Hold tight to those thoughts and may they keep you warm when the days start to get colder... love you! Kiki

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  6. Leah, a quick addendum. While trying to hold down the idea of kale and okra last night, I completely forgot about collard greens. It almost makes me sick to think about the possibilities. That's it! I hope you can enjoy some healthy food that tastes good and gives you the nutrition and stuff which will help you gain your strength.

    Stay spooky!

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  7. What a special spot! It reminds me of your Arizona rocks photo. You should definitely go there for some sun, but at least you have this wonderful spot in the meantime. Warm, sunny hugs!

    Cady

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