Happy dance?!

I met with the medical oncologist from Dana farber today.  I am currently in the car on the way home and thought I'd blog as we are stuck in ridiculous traffic.  I was a little nervous when in the waiting room there were 1,000 to 1,200 piece puzzles.  Really?? I have time to work on a thousand piece puzzle?? Man I should have brought more snacks!  We only waited a little over an hour so that wasn't  bad, I know the dr had to review all my scans and records and they always do that right before they see you.

She surprised the heck out of me with her opinion!  She did say that she would bring me up with her tumor board and call me next week to tell me their thoughts so I will anxiously await that call.  She said that she does not recommend any treatment right now.  The data that is out there does not prove that doing more chemo would in any way cure me.  She said that it would possibly delay reoccurrence but not prevent it.  She has a suspicion based on my scans that the metastasis on the ovary was there from the beginning.  There is a scan in October where the area where my left ovary is, there is area lit up on the PET scan.  This could be something from my colon having to do with my surgery but could also have been cancer in my ovary.

Since I just finished treatment and did all 12 rounds (like a champ) she doesn't see the benefit of doing chemo right now.  She said she would recommend chemo if she thought it would make a difference but she does not see it beneficial right now.

We haven't made any decisions to switch my care to Dana farber.  This dr spoke very highly of my oncologist in providence.  She was perfectly happy to consult with me as I felt necessary and see me when I want her to.  She also said she would discuss her recommendation with my oncologist.

I myself am trying to figure out why I am doing a happy dance when I just heard I probably am not cured and chemo won't cure me but I am just grateful to get a break from treatment.  I am almost positive I will do chemo again, when there is something there to treat.  I am trying a no meat, no dairy diet for a while.  all those veggies fight cancer and I feel like I'm doing something to treat those microscopic cells!   i just need a break.  I need to be able to enjoy my vacation, enjoy my kids and live just for a little while.  I should be getting a scan in July and that could change everything but for now let me just live.