summer!

I have felt the need to blog but I don't really know what to say.  I have a call into the dana farber Dr as of this morning to see what her colleagues thought of my case.  I also have an apt to see my oncologist here in providence on friday.  I spoke with him last week and he seemed to think it was very reasonable to do the wait and watch approach at this point.  He also agreed a scan mid july was a good plan. 

I feel so relieved that summer is finally here!  I had my first real beach day and discovered my almost 2 year old is terrified of sand!  we had him touching it in no time but it was a great thing to watch, my kids are always surprising me.  I hope to go back to work in September.  I am still taking naps and feeling tired, but I hope to be feeling really good by then.  That will be about a year since this all started and that seems so crazy to me, who knew that I would be spending a whole year like I did. 

I still feel so blessed.  I have the two most beautiful children in the world, I mean what are the chances right?! How did we get so lucky?? ;)  Thanks to my neighbor who took these pictures of my little ones. 

I think one of the hardest things through all of this is to just be with them every day and think that I might not get to see them grow up.  I know I shouldn't be thinking that way but it is impossible not to go there once in a while.  I have heard recently that there are some people that find it too hard to read my blog.  I totally get that, but I just wanted to say that I appreciate everyone who does and continues to support me.  I need you all, you are what get me through the rough patches and I know as rough as these last 10 months have been, there is so much more to face.  Stay with me!